This week at Thursday Night Bible study, we read through 1 Corinthians 6. I was really excited to go to Bible study. I ran out of my dorm and down the stairs with a huge smile on my face. I had a pep in my step. I was excited to see my friends again (not gonna lie, I was also excited for dessert). I really love this group. There are so many wonderful people that I have come to know over the past few months. It’s a very warm environment that I feel extremely safe and comfortable.
Last night, we were talking about what it means to glorify God. We talked about 1 Corinthians 6:19, “Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own: you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.” We talked quite a bit on what that means exactly. The one question that stuck out to me was: How do we honor God? How can we glorify him daily? One of the brothers said that we should honor God in everything we do, in our school work, in our relationships, in our everyday lives. But that is hard. I don’t know if it is only me who feels like it is hard to live for God every second of every day. I am only a freshman, my first year in college; this is my first year on my own. I want to be free but I feel like I still have so many responsibilities. I want to make my family proud of me. I want to make my coaches proud of me. I am having to make decisions about the kind of person I want to be. I am having to choose which kind of friendships I want to build and who I want to associate myself with because who you hang out with can completely alter you without you even knowing it. I feel like the world is pushing down so hard on me sometimes. I am afraid to make the wrong decisions. I am afraid to speak up and say what I feel because I feel like it isn’t going to be good enough. I am afraid to be vulnerable and put my feelings out there. It is hard for me to trust because I feel like not many people honestly have my best interests in their heart.
Although, I am glad that I have become a part of this family; I have sisters and brothers now who do care enough about me to ask how I am feeling and give me some encouragement and support and a big hug when I need it. I have a really close friend who is constantly pressing me to say what I am feeling even though it is hard for me to express my emotions sometimes, she doesn’t let me give up and I am thankful for that. I am thankful that I accepted the Summer Reading Bible Challenge. I am thankful that I went to Freshmen Connect on Move-In Day and I met my best friend. She has encouraged me to write for this blog and I have been writing, and it feels really good. I feel like this is a way to glorify God, through writing (which I really, really enjoy). I think (I hope and pray) that this is what He made me to do. I know everything happens for a reason and even though I don’t know exactly why I am here and what He wants me to do I have to believe that it is for something great. My favorite verse is this: “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” –Romans 8:28
And it is true, He does work everything for my good. I believe that. Do you?